As a place to start, I will recognise a fault which I suffer from. I am scared about things with more than 3 dimensions. That kind of things that you can’t draw on your mind when you close your eyes. And maybe this is the way I feel when thinking on my digital identity. It has so many dimensions or perspectives, that makes me feel restless. Let’s have a look…
I do construct my own digital identity based on my real identity. Does it mean that this digital identity is a high-fidelity picture of myself? Of course not! Unfortunately (or fortunately), some parts of my brain are cleverer than other ones, so I am perfectly able to lie to myself. Therefore, the digital identity which I create is completely influenced by my own subjectivity, the way I think I am.
And once I have the subjective picture of myself, what do I do? Do I share all the details? Of course not! I try to control, as far as possible, what information I am sharing and who I am sharing it with.
I am not saying that I behave myself as a wary spy during the cold war, analyzing every single consequence before I click my mouse. But it is obvious that I can’t talk to my manager in the same way I’d do to my mum, and honestly, I can’t see the point of writing a comment in a Star Trek forum discussing whether I have my heart broken or not.. Every light has a right moment and place to shine.
To have a better control over the factors who and what, comes up my necessity of having a bipolar or multiple digital identity (my mate identity, my student identity, my professional identity, my living-in-England identity.. A lot of holograms to represent the same reality!
What about the other people? They construct my real identity based on my digital identity. This time is the others’ subjectivity which plays its role. They take the traces I have already spreaded all over the social media, and draw a picture of me, of what they perceive of me. So, depending on what traces they find and how they interpret them, the resultant picture could be really different from one case to another one.
All I can say is that my digital identity is a really disconcerting puzzle with a lot of missing pieces. Maybe during this little travel by blog that I begin now, I could fill in some of the empty spaces (specially those related to my professional identity). I would feel really peaceful if I could close my eyes and have a clearer picture of my digital me!
“If I can’t picture it, I can’t understand it.” – Albert Einstein
If I can’t understand it, it is scary!
And before you associate the word rudeness with my newborn digital identity, I will introduce myself:
My name is María and I am a telecommunications engineer from Spain. I came to England one year ago, in a desperate attempt at learning English and living another culture, while deciding what to do with my life. Now, I am studying an MSc in Audio Production at Salford University, and the simple possibility of become an expert in the field of sound almost makes me cry of happiness. That’s me! A smiling person in a world that changes too fast!